current tune: sarah mclachlan - trainwreck
i took a weekend off from the world. i spent it coccooned where i could only experience beauty and pleasure and caring. i thought that i would come back to find these elements highlighted in the world i had left.
fu-uck.
how is it that people you know for years ( or, "know" ?) suddenly show themselves to be completely other? and you suddenly realize that every halfway-friend that you share with this person is more worth saving than they. and you don't cringe at the edge of the abyss where that "friend" may depart. and you don't worry they might not make it, only for those in the blast radius. and you Know that things can't go back. damn objectivity.
this post was supposed to be about this sweet, drop dead hott girl from BC that i've been missing, but after twelve hours at work, i found myself buried back in the same scene i was before she came. only difference was, i had no cloud in my eyes about some of the people in it. the maps are clear, of who's who, and who can be trusted. wow, i just switched topics back again. i'll wait for daylight to make any further attempts at clarity.
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